There's a lot going on in the month of July

Emma and I just got back from our two week vacation to Pennsylvania. We were very entertained while we were there. Went to an amusement park, the beach, the board walk, Jason's Pappy's house in Maryland, Jason's Dad's house out in the woods, the "ice cream park" (as Emma calls it) which is really a tasty freeze with a kids play area, and other wise just hung out with Nana and Jeff. Nana had a kiddie pool for Emma to play in, I got a few runs in during the cool of the evening, and we saw some relatives we hadn't seen in a while. It was fun, but it's good to be back in Tucson. There is so much going on here. I often felt, while I was away, that I was missing out on all the wedding planning. But, I'm here now and there is PLENTY to do. Between starting a new, strict weight loss program of running 3 miles morning and night and eating 1200 calories a day, putting together the bridal shower with mom, putting together the bachlorette party with the girls, organizing the wedding budget, planning Jason's home coming, and of course playing scrabble; Emma and I are going to be busy bees the rest of this summer.
As I sit here and ponder all that I have going on and delving pretty deeply in the lives and activities of those around me, I find it hard not to think back on my own past experiences. Past weddings, past home comings, past vacations. Life has not always been a bed of roses and it would be easy to let bitterness take it's place in my heart again, a home it's felt so safe at for many, many years. But, life does go on and I try very hard not to dwell in the past. Instead, I'm trying to make sure my family's future is better.
I am determined to nip Emma's discipline in the bud before Jason gets back. I have to become more consistent and Emma needs less distraction while she's learning new life lessons.I've gotten pretty behind on the pre-preschool that I had hoped to do with her when she turned 2. I was hoping Emma would be a wealth of knowledge by now and while I wish I had worked harder with her, I am proud to say she knows quite a number of letters from the alphabet, holds a pencil correctly, and is learning how to draw letters and spell words. I jest, of course, about her being a wealth of knowledge at this age. However, I do expect her to know her alphabet by the age of 4 and she really should be able to count to 10 by now. This falls on me and I have neglected her educational upbringing while concentrating a lot on spiritual and social which is important as well. It will be nice when the other parents of the home is here so I don't have to do all this on my own.
My mind spirals as I think about all that July will hold. I'm anxious to find out when Jason's going to officially coming home. I'm nervous about moving back to Washington as I've been doing so well here with my depression and involvement in the church. At this point, I think it's important to just take one day at a time. Though, I have to give my mom the credit for that thought because it is she who will tell me that often times when I'm stressing about things that are too far in the future to worry about.