Today, it dawned on me that Jason was deploying in TWO days! How could I have lost track of time? How could I have put off all those things I wanted to do with him before he left? I never have any energy. I never feel like doing anything but laying around. Absolute worst time to feel lifeless. I'm not ready for this deployment. It's going to be really hard on me, emotionally; and I'm not going to be handling my loneliness very well.
There's so much to do! We just have not had any time before he leaves! I don't feel like we have made that special "I'm leaving soon" bond that we usually make. Must be because of how busy we've been and we haven't been on a date at all that didn't involve Emma.
Friday morning Jason is going to go to work and not come home and I'm not going to be ready for that.
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