Baby Revealing

"I am my daughter's mother" now has an apostrophe out of place. Friday, the 28th, mom and I went to find out what the sex of the baby was. I was pretty excited to find out, which is always a strange emotion for me. I rarely feel actual excitement about anything. And, when I was pregnant for Emma I never felt excited about the pregnancy until the day she was born. So, this was all new feelings for me. Mom and I were both hoping for a boy. When the lady told us I was having a girl I was embarrassed to actually feel upset. Fortunately, mom was disappointed too. I thought since it was the baby growing inside of me I would love it either way. But, I felt a wave of disappointing emotions swell over me when I first found out. My first thought was that Jason would be disappointed as well. He wanted a boy so badly. Mom and I exchanged glances of "oh-no" and my second thought was that I would have to do this again. I know Jason wanted to stop even if it was a girl, but I had really hoped for a boy to carry on the family name. Mom and I were both so thankful, however, that the baby was healthy and we were so impressed with the intricacy of God's creation.

As we left the doctor's office, I think we were still feeling stunned by the news. I was excited to know, though, and acting completely out of character, was telling everyone. Even when I got engaged, I showed my ring to no stranger and told no one that I was getting married besides family and friends. But, the news of the baby excited me enough that I told a stranger in the elevator. I even showed him the pictures. And later that day I told a cashier at Motherhood. And before we were even out of the doctor's office parking lot, I knew I was satisfied with a girl. I started thinking about how much Emma would love the news, how much easier having two girls would be and how we could stay in the RV with out having to upgrade to two separate sleeping areas for the kids. I realized this was truly God's plan for us at this time in our life and I was starting to happily except it. I knew in the back of my mind that as soon as we were settled down somewhere I would be more than happy to push out a couple more kids and try for a boy. In the meantime, Emma would really enjoy her sister.

We decided to have a revealing party for the family on Sunday so I had to spend a couple days not telling anyone. Sunday, after church, everyone else thought we were having a boy, too. We had a pink balloon and a blue balloon for each person. They popped the balloon that did not correspond to what they thought we were having. After the popping of the balloons, Emma and I came out from a back room. Emma held a sign that was decorated in pink and read "It's a girl." She wore a sparkly pink dress. I came behind her holding a pink giraffe balloon and wearing a shirt that said "Princess in Progress." As we turned the corner, ALL, but one balloon were blue. Josh was the only one who had predicted a girl. It was such a great surprise to everyone find out. I didn't get to see their faces, but we all agreed that a sister for Emma was such a perfect idea. The whole day felt kind of like a birthday party. We had strawberry waffles and strawberry milk for lunch. It was a relief to get the secret out. Now it's all fun and games talking to Emma about her new baby sister. She already seems very willing to want to help out. Knowing the sex of the baby has actually made me feel more excited about this pregnancy. I feel a little more connected to the baby inside of me and am looking forward to the birth. God has been so good to our family and I'm so thankful he watches over us.

I'll be registering at Target. PLEASE, if you are choosing to get us a baby gift, stick to the registry or keep in mind that we live in a camper and have VERY limited space.